MY LIFE THROUGH OLD LENSES

 

God reminds us of how often we operate through old lenses – old thinking, limiting beliefs and past perspectives as well as experiences. The lenses can be negative, being shaped by past pain, self-doubt, unforgiveness, anger, bitterness, resentment etc. Or the lenses can be positive, shaped by a perspective that is focused on our growth, strength and joy.

For a very long time after I separated from ex-husband, I viewed my life through old, broken, and darkened lenses, my world appeared fractured, dark, gloomy, feeling defeated, full of fear and extremely overwhelming, this was the perception that shaped my reality not realising that this was me now refusing to heal. I was angry that I overstayed in a marriage that was toxic, I put my children through hell, I didn’t deserve what was dealt to me in that marriage but guess what? The sad reality is that this was all that happened in the past, it’s all part of my history, I can’t change it, but I can definitely change and influence how I move forward. This was all part of my story, the reality that was preparing me and shaping me for a better tomorrow, a change of story. For me becoming aware of these lenses that were now defining how I view my life was an empowering and huge step I took. I started by challenging my old habits, my beliefs and what I had learned through the years.

Viewing my life through the distorted lenses of being fearful, through my flawed perspective, and at times superficial values defined by the world around me was not working for me because it only got me getting deeper into the pit I was busy digging for myself. I had to make a huge adjustment of the lenses and forced myself to start seeing the world in a new more constructive way, through God’s restorative lenses of sound perspective, wisdom, restoration, and unconditional love.

Looking back, I now realise that looking at my life through the flawed lenses, it was part of my healing journey. I learned that it was okay for me to fall apart when I did even when I thought I had it under control, it was not nor is it a sign of weakness, I am not weak. Healing is messy as it’s supposed to be, there’s no timeline for one’s healing journey. Breaking is a process of confronting demons, allowing problems to take off, making room for new beginnings and a brighter future full of positive energy, growth and transformation maybe even love. They say, “Broken glass is often a sign of release or freedom, and likewise often signifies good things coming your way”, I know for sure that good things are coming my way. 

“Leaving the details to God because when we pray He listens

You are God’s girl, not the world’s leftover.

Not His second choice, not broken beyond repair.

You carry oil. You carry fire, and Heaven backs you.

So walk like you’re chosen,

Talk like you’re loved.

And never forget – you are God’s girl. Period. – author unknown”

I’m evolving, I’m definitely open to viewing my life with new powerful lenses that I’m currently using for making sense of my life as I’m rewriting my story with a clearer, kinder, and more expansive lens while moving away from a fractured and outdated lens I had used to define my life for over 23 years.

God’s Word is designed to give us new eyes and renew our minds daily (Romans12:2). Faith changes how we see, worship magnifies God above our circumstances. I have learned to lean on the Word, praise and worship so that my vision is shaped by God’s promises and not my problems. For me to see clearer, a hope-filled future He has for me.

My journey continues and I strive to move towards a happier and more fulfilling life🥂💃🏽🥰 I’m Just A Small Girl With A Big God🙏🏽💕 Mercy Rewrote My Life🙏🏽💕Mercy Said No🙏🏽💕 Grace Has Located Me🙏🏽💕 I Am An Overcomer🙏🏾💕A Very Beautiful Story❤️ Live in the moment, Laugh harder, Love💖 deeply & Celebrate more💕🎉🥂💃🏽🥰

For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart - 1 Samuel 16:7🙏🏾🙏🏾

Love & Light 

Dipsy💚