FINISHING THE YEAR SOFT

 As the year comes to a close, we take a moment to celebrate our wins, acknowledge the misses, and hold onto hope for those last-minute miracles to hit our goals. It’s a natural rhythm—I’m right there reflecting too: What worked? What missteps added to the hurdles? How have I grown? And most importantly, what changes I want to make as I step into the new year.

I have to admit, 2025 threw some heavy punches—from fighting my ex for child maintenance, struggling with my youngest daughter, balancing being a present mom to my son while juggling work, and witnessing those I love face tough blows facing hardships and working through my own healing and self-discovery. Life was tough, no doubt. But here I stand—grateful, resilient, and definitely winning in the end.

2025 has been one of my most challenging and toughest years, yet I remain hopeful, faithful, and deeply grateful for the good and the blessings that has come my way. I’m surrounded by love—by people who truly care and are always there for me. Reflecting on this journey, I’m proud of the woman I’ve become and all I’ve accomplished as well as achieved this year. In this journey of becoming, I’ve realized that healing very different from simply surviving. For a long time, I criticized myself for not healing as quickly as I thought I should. There were times I felt lost, anxious, and overwhelmed, but I kept reminding myself, “Your pain has a purpose. This too shall pass.” Though I’ve faced moments of doubt and pain, I hold onto the belief that every struggle serves a purpose. Even when setbacks triggered old wounds, I held onto hope, knowing that with each step forward, I’m moving closer to a deeper and true healing as well as peace. 

I used to blame myself for not being strong enough, brave enough, or unbreakable like I wished to be. But as I reflected, I realized I was trying to heal in the very environment (our marital home) that broke me—the very same environment that shattered me. Each court meeting with my ex-husband, was like reopening old wounds, keeping the pain alive. I fought to find the light, I searched for the light so long that I lost the strength to even find it, I felt too worn out to even see it anymore.

I’ve come to understand that the bleeding won’t stop while the one who caused the wounds remains in my life, true healing needs space, and it can’t happen unless those wounds are given space to breathe and mend. I was desperate, impatient—so eager to heal that I didn’t realize I was doing it all wrong. I was trying to rebuild myself around the very person who broke me apart. Now, I know healing truly begins when I step away from the source of my pain and give myself the time and grace to grow whole/anew again.

I truly till believe my pain served a meaningful purpose—a journey that helped me uncover my authentic self and embrace the valuable lessons I needed to learn. Though it was painful, and despite the hardships, I’m grateful for the experience because it made me stronger, wiser, better, and more resilient. Reflecting on this past year, I know beyond a doubt that it was God above all who carried me through and I’m certain that it was God’s guidance that saw me through. He has been my anchor, my steady rock, the hand I’ve held onto then and continue to hold on to now, and for that, my heart will deeply and forever be grateful.

In this journey of becoming, I choose to move with purpose the rhythm of intention—not the stumble of chance. I rise with motivation, not manipulation; I build bridges and create solutions, not excuses. I chase excellence over competition, wear self-worth like a crown, and silence the noise to hear my own soul’s call, to hear my own truth. I love deeply and fiercely, work passionately, and ignite my spirit with relentless passionate fire and chase my dreams with relentless passionate drive. Now and always, I CHOOSE TO BE UNAPOLOGETICALLY ME—BOLD, FIERCE, AND UNSTOPPABLE, LIVING MY LIFE BOLDLY AND ON MY OWN TERMS!

I’m wrapping up the year surrounded by people and places that soothe my soul and calm my nerves. This year, I’m trading my endless mental to-do lists for a clear, peaceful mind while embracing clarity and calm. I’m showing up fully for myself—no more running worn out trying to be everywhere at once. I’m celebrating every step of my growth, not dwelling on what didn’t happen. I’m moving through these final moments with purpose and grace, intention and ease taking it slow and steady. And most importantly, I’m ending the year rested, renewed, refreshed, and ready to welcome what’s ahead!

Wishing you and your loved ones a holiday season bursting with peace, love, and all things joyful! Stay safe, soak up the magic, and happiest holidays to you—can’t wait to catch up in the new year! 

My journey continues and I strive to move towards a happier and more fulfilling life🥂💃🏽🥰 I’m Just A Small Girl With A Big God🙏🏽💕 Mercy Rewrote My Life🙏🏽💕Mercy Said No🙏🏽💕 Grace Has Located Me🙏🏽💕 I Am An Overcomer🙏🏾💕A Very Beautiful Story❤️ Live in the moment, Laugh harder, Love💖 deeply & Celebrate more💕🎉🥂💃🏽🥰

Let us examine and test our ways, and turn back to the LORD - Lamentations 3:40🙏🏾🙏🏾

Love & Light 

Dipsy💚